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  The Tens

  Vanessa Jones

  Copyright © 2021 Vanessa Jones

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  The characters and events portrayed in this book are fictitious. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.

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  Contents

  Title Page

  Copyright

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  PROLOGUE

  CHAPTER ONE

  CHAPTER TWO

  CHAPTER THREE

  CHAPTER FOUR

  CHAPTER FIVE

  CHAPTER SIX

  CHAPTER SEVEN

  CHAPTER EIGHT

  CHAPTER NINE

  CHAPTER TEN

  CHAPTER ELEVEN

  CHAPTER TWELVE

  CHAPTER THIRTEEN

  CHAPTER FOURTEEN

  CHAPTER FIFTEEN

  CHAPTER SIXTEEN

  CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

  CHAPTER EIGHTEEN

  CHAPTER NINETEEN

  CHAPTER TWENTY

  CHAPTER TWENTY ONE

  CHAPTER TWENTY TWO

  CHAPTER TWENTY THREE

  CHAPTER TWENTY FOUR

  CHAPTER TWENTY FIVE

  CHAPTER TWENTY SIX

  CHAPTER TWENTY SEVEN

  CHAPTER TWENTY EIGHT

  CHAPTER TWENTY NINE

  CHAPTER THIRTY

  CHAPTER THIRTY ONE

  CHAPTER THIRTY TWO

  CHAPTER THIRTY THREE

  CHAPTER THIRTY FOUR

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  PROLOGUE

  The white rock, which was nearly her height, loomed at her with a reflective sheen. The hollows in its side looked like eyes, terrifying and watching. Sophie could hear it laughing at her, like a cartoon character. Menacing mirth that echoed from nowhere but also all around her during a night that was as cold as it looked in the heart of the woods.

  Despite the fear, Sophie strode up to it and laid her creased hand on the chalky surface, wanting to know if it was real. Her palm slipped upwards and she wobbled on her feet. She could have sworn the rock moved to spite her. Or maybe it was the sudden ferocious wind that had knocked her off balance. She dropped to her knees, as if she were at the mercy of an altar; hoping to be relieved of the haunting of that white rock.

  Sophie knew she had to get out of there, dizzy with the desire to run away from the rock and the maniacal laughter. But no matter where she turned, she couldn’t find any openings in the trees that were beginning to buck in the wild wind. In fact, with every blink, the army of trees hugged tighter together and seemed to circle in on Sophie. Like they were arm in arm, moving forth as one. With the wind all but drowning out the laughter, she pressed her back against the reflective rock and waited…

  CHAPTER ONE

  The rock nightmare was so repetitive that sometimes Sophie yearned for any other kind of nightmare— being chased by vampires or some kind of dystopian apocalypse. Regularly, she woke with a ring of sweat around her neck and a tight headache, part of the ritual of her taunting nightmare. That was always the same. Never changed. A nightmare she’d had since she was little. It started off infrequently. Perhaps four times a year when she was a teenager. Its frequency increased over the years, more so when she was stressed. But since her thirtieth birthday, Sophie couldn’t escape the nightmare or pretend it no longer bothered her. Especially when it happened every single night.

  Sophie liked to blame her husband for her uncurling sanity. But that was hardly fair. Especially since Alex had always been the perfect husband to her. With an almost rehearsed attentiveness, they were each other’s best friends. The way he warmed up the car before she got in on cold mornings was all she needed. The way she waited fifteen minutes after they'd eaten dinner to suggest dessert because she knew he liked to have a break between the two, cupped his heart. The way in which she would swipe her thumb across his broad, rectangular forehead, made his smile widen.

  Unusually, Alex had started coming home later and later from work. It was so out of character for Alex, being the morning person that he was. So one evening, Sophie couldn’t fight off the unnamed viciousness that caused such friction on her senses anymore. She packed up the soup she had been stirring to hand-deliver to the office of the IT firm where he worked. Hoping it would put the gnawing in her mind to rest when she saw him there, hunched at his desk and the icy light of the screen shining on the pointy bits of his face that made her ache with fondness. She pictured his large nose tip pressing his cupid's bow down, over his incensed lips as he jabbed at his keyboard.

  But when Sophie rocked up to the building and saw that his car was not there, she had to finally acknowledge the mounting anxiety. The anxiety that made her think the worst. She tried to lull it by being ashamed of having it. Ashamed for thinking the worst, subtly looking for proof wherever she could. And yet her body was screaming like it was trapped at the helm of a monster.

  Relief swam through her like a melody when she pulled up behind Alex's car in the driveway, after she raced home, tilting the container of soup with her careless turning of corners. As she rushed in with the soup in outstretched hands, she felt guilty. For an uncouth and unreasonable panic. Trying her best to hide any trace of embarrassment or disturbance from her husband, she said breathlessly 'we must have just missed each other honey.’

  'Huh?' He looked a little perplexed and Sophie knew she had to backpedal to bring the ground back to even.

  'Oh, I just made some dinner and thought I'd drop it off to you at work. But by the time I got there, you'd obviously already been on your way home.'

  'Ahhh. Yep.' He took the soup from her and became extremely interested in it, discarding his keys, with its silly oval copper keyring, on the bench. The keyring had been with Alex longer than Sophie had. She was so used to the way he circled his thumb over the sketched cross indentation, particularly when nervous or deciding on something. 'I made it in school and it's one of the only stereotypically manly things I have ever done, so I'm hanging onto it for a bit longer.' He would explain, whenever she poked fun at it.

  Sophie was grateful that he made a big deal about the soup so she could continue to find ways to abate her shame, hidden under the decor of mundane evening tasks. The washing up. Emptying the bins. Throwing shoes back into the cupboard. Besides, they were textbook for each other and she was loathed to upset that with her petty neuroticisms. Which she noticed were becoming more frequent, thanks to ageing and lack of sleep. Ever since her thirtieth birthday, she'd been having the nightmares more and her sleep suffered. Which then translated into irrational thoughts and moods during the day and Sophie was gravely afraid it would all spill over into the groove of bliss that she'd created with Alex.

  CHAPTER TWO

  When she lifted her head from her pillow, she spotted a damp imprint and tried to rub it off. Flinging back the covers, she shuffled out of bed, leaving her sleeping husband behind.

  Alex entered the kitchen a little while later in his pyjamas and looked across to Sophie who was in her nightdress and dressing gown, sipping coffee and looking forlornly across their backyard.

  ‘Nightmare again?’ Alex asked.

  ‘Every night since I turned thirty,’ Sophie replied.

  ‘Aww, hun. White rock again?’

  ‘Always. Are you going to be late home from work again tonight?’

  ‘I don’t intend to but you know… it’s work.’ Alex shr
ugged and accepted the cup of coffee that Sophie poured for him.

  ‘I thought I’d take the day off. Hopefully get some energy back.’

  ‘Painting today?’ He asked her. The question seemed innocent. But to Sophie, it was loaded. Real or imagined.

  Sophie sighed and said ‘I’m going to try. I feel so blocked ever since I turned thirty. Is this just what happens when you get old?

  Alex laughed and hugged Sophie, ‘Probably! Maybe you just need some decent sleep?’

  ‘Who doesn’t?’

  ‘True. I gotta get ready for work.’ He kissed her on the cheek and left her alone with her coffee.

  By the time evening swept in, Sophie was still in her sleepwear from the morning. Worriedly checking the clock and then the window to see if her Alex had arrived home from work yet. Passing a framed photo of them happily embracing, she smiled to herself. She kissed two of her fingers and pressed them against the photo just as Alex walked in and the air became heavy with Sophie’s suspicion.

  ‘Sorry, Soph. Work was…’ Alex rushes in, arms full of papers, his discarded tie and apologies.

  But Sophie points to the backyard. ‘Did you see that?’

  ‘What?’

  ‘Something flew across the yard.’

  ‘Flew? Like a bird?’

  ‘More like whipped across the yard.’ Sophie’s panic started to rise, especially as Alex wasn’t taking her seriously.

  ‘What do you mean? Can you talk sense please?’

  ‘Alex! I think someone is out there. Or a large animal or something.’

  ‘Like a bear?’ Alex mocked her.

  ‘Yes! I'm serious.’

  Alex shuffled past her impatiently and dumped his keys and briefcase on the kitchen bench. ‘It's not a bear.’

  Sophie caught up to him and wobbled his shoulder back and forth. ‘Why aren't you listening to me? I'm scared.’

  ‘Okay. I'm sorry. I'll go check.’

  ‘Please. But be careful. It could be an intruder. Or something dangerous. I don't feel good about this.’ Sophie wiped her hand across her stomach nervously as Alex exited to investigate. He came back quicker than Sophie would have liked.

  ‘Honestly Sophie, there is nothing out there. Are you tired?’

  Gritting her teeth, Sophie said ‘there may not be anything now but I swear I saw something out there. There's no way I imagined it.’

  'Okay, okay. I'm not suggesting you're making it up or anything,' with the very tone that implied that he did. 'But perhaps it was a trick of the light?'

  ‘Or, perhaps, it's some junkie about to stab us in our sleep. But sure, it's the light.’

  ‘I know you're scared Soph but that's no reason to get mad at me. We're safe, nothing will happen! Let’s go to bed, hun.’

  Sophie obliged but slyly took note that Alex double-checked the lock on the door before coming to bed. As she lay in bed she stared at the ceiling whilst Alex removed his work clothes and got in beside her.

  ‘Honey, I’m really worried about you. Things seem a little off-kilter. Maybe it’s time you go to the doctor? Or have a spa day with Bree?’

  ‘Bree hasn’t returned my calls for weeks. I have no idea why she is ignoring me. Anyway, I don’t know her that well. Perhaps she decided she wasn’t that interested in being friends with me anyway.’

  ‘She’s probably busy. I wouldn’t worry too much. Book the doctor and see what they have to say. Til then, let’s get some sleep, hey?’ He leant across and kissed her goodnight.

  CHAPTER THREE

  A noisy cacophony of birds woke Sophie up. She groaned at being awoken by them when she desperately needed more sleep. Risking an eye open, she searched for her phone to check the time. She rolled over to discover Alex’s side of the bed empty. Smiling to herself, she knew that Alex was probably up making her coffee at that very moment.

  Wandering into the kitchen with the doona wrapped around her, she spied that the kitchen was empty. ‘Alex? Honey?’ Sophie called out. The birds finally had quietened down a little.

  Shuffling over to the kitchen bench with her doona around her shoulders like a cape, Sophie reached for the folded paper on the benchtop. Picking it up was instinctive. You see a folded note, you pick it up to read. The action was so automatic that she forgot to be anxious about what it would mean. But then she read the sparse words of Alex’s handwriting: ‘I have to leave you. I’m so sorry. X’

  Sophie gingerly placed the note back down on the countertop where she found it and unblinkingly moved to the sofa.

  CHAPTER FOUR

  Underneath the doona on the couch and still in a state of shock, Sophie reflexively switched from looking at the muted TV, like a zombie, to her phone to the note that Alex left. And she stayed there until it turned dark outside. With nothing more than the TV light reflecting off her. Devoid of any reasonable thought or reaction. Her memory short-circuiting every ten seconds as she forgot what she was doing and lifts the strange note in her hand to her eyeline again.

  She considers calling her new friend, Bree, but something stops her from going through with it. It’s the thought that their friendship is so new. So unformed. It almost felt inappropriate to Sophie to call upon her.

  Sophie met Bree not long before her thirtieth birthday at an awkward group where everyone pretended they were happy and at peace with their life. Even the lady that was hiding her relationship with her first cousin. And the woman who paid for her husband’s mistress’s mental health treatment. And the woman who ate rubber bands. Sophie started going to the groups to get out of her head and heal herself from the nightmares. She thought that a little meditation wouldn’t hurt. But the whole time she just felt like a petulant teenager that couldn’t fit in.

  The one good thing that blossomed from it was meeting Bree and how quickly they connected. It was the way the blonde shiny woman smiled at her that sucked her in. It was also the way the fresh-faced lady was cheerful but in which Sophie caught her smile fall away on her pearlescent pink lips too quickly. Her French-tipped nails were spotless, Sophie noticed, as Bree waved them around in direct cadence with how she spoke. A simple, understated wedding band adorned a finger, which felt in stark contrast to the overtly obvious diamond earring studs and designer label jeans.

  It was in Bree’s sparkling, unhurried demeanour and the way she just let compliments somersault out her mouth that encouraged Sophie to relax a little inside; something that was few and far between. Each time they caught up for coffee, Sophie found herself more and more engaged in Bree’s life and warmth. And on the day that Bree referred to her as “Soph”, she thought she had truly found a friend. But without explanation, Bree hadn’t returned at least three of her recent calls. So she stopped trying. She knew a dismissal when she saw one. So Sophie continued to be held by her fugue state, alone, there on the couch trying to work out what the note really meant and if she had somehow mistaken its meaning. Perhaps Alex would simply be back after work? Maybe he meant to say ‘I have to leave you in bed.’ But Sophie knew. Deep down, she knew.

  Once it was well and truly night time, somewhere in the back of Sophie’s mind a rational thought pushed its way through, like it was pushing through a crowd. The brainwave forced her into action, the doona dropped to the couch as she stood up and stalked out of the loungeroom into her bedroom where she flung open the cupboard doors. Desperately searching for any missing items, she was perplexed that there was barely anything missing besides a bag, one T-shirt and one set of pants. All his socks still seemed to be lined up in the drawer, grinning back at Sophie.

  Stomping into the bathroom she spied his toothbrush missing from the holder. But as she scoured around, she discovered it was flung into the rubbish bin, its chewed head pressed into the plastic liner like it was ashamed of Alex's behaviour. He didn’t even take his toothbrush, she thought hopefully.

  Armed with the new information, she tried to ring Alex again. And, again, it rung out. Spotting her dishevelled and utterly defeated appearance in the
bathroom mirror, she hung her head over the basin and started to sob.

  CHAPTER FIVE

  During the promise of the next day, even after a seemingly endless night of no sleep, it dawned on her that something wasn't right. Husbands do not just decide to leave. Not on an ordinary morning, without a hint of unrest. Not when they'd only recently made love with a sweetness that they each thought was long forgotten.

  She still could not bring herself to phone Bree. Who knows what the additional sting of her not answering the phone would do to her in such a fragile state. But even Sophie could see that she desperately needed a friend. Unfortunately, the only ones she had were Bree. And Alex.

  There really was no place to go and look for him but what other choice did she have? The powerlessness of staying home, waiting and ringing, felt like it would decay her soul. She pulled into the car park of his work, despite being told by the main reception, several times, that he was not in the office. Sophie didn’t believe her. Instead, believing it was clearly a ploy to stop her hysterics that she was bound to unleash on Alex. Regretfully, she stopped ringing his work after the receptionist tactfully suggested she stop ringing, for her own sanity as well as his. But she had to see for herself.